Pressure Can Lead To A Lack Of Peace

One of the greatest challenges that I face personally, on a regular basis, is “letting go” and “letting God”. The reason is simple. As a person who is the continual state of Spiritual Recovery, I find the challenge of not being in control difficult. Ironically, I find that trying to be in control of all my situations is equally difficult. It is important when dealing with spiritual recovery to be as honest and forthright about one’s perceptions and feelings as is possible. There are times when I want to look up to Heaven, smile and just function in the “O.k., You take care of it. It’s your problem now” model. Then, like a snake that enters from the tiniest hole, the thoughts about past discouragements enter the mental fray. And in a twisted fashion, it feels like, from time to time, when I have let go in my past, things quickly fell apart. Even as I write these very words, my spirit and my heart know that these spewed ideologies are false. However, the enemy, the devil, is wise in dealing with humans. After all, he’s been doing it since the beginning of mankind and has had a great deal of practice. While my spirit knows that letting go and trusting in God’s control and sovereignty is not only wise but is the true path to peace, my flesh feels like I need to be in control to protect myself, as much as possible, from being hurt or burned.  I have not, by any means, ever grown one inch, apart from the grace and kindness of God. In my mind, I feel stronger, more astute, and even more aware. But I also feel more of the pressure of life itself. I often tease with my spouse by implying the death blow that everyone would feel if I were to vanish. But as much as it seems to be true to me, it is also false. People, because of God’s grace, have an uncanny knack for survival. And if I were to be called to the Heavenlys, all the current dependers would go right on surviving, without, as is now my guess, missing a beat in life. Therefore, the pressures to prevail and the pressures to perform are based on false assumptions of others being situation ally dependent upon me. The truth is that everyone is continually dependent on God. For, without Him, there would be no survival of anyone, of any kind, anywhere. People don’t need me to survive. They need God. I would do well to humble myself and remember this. So, truthfully, when I let go, I simply enter into the mode or zone of truth that I was designed to function in. It’s hard to stay in because I walk in my flesh a great deal. It’s desirable to walk in because of my born again spirit crying out for rest within God Himself. Letting go and letting God is the way of truth. Because of my frame, it is also a realized pain of failing. Trusting in Him to provide for all things, and to help us to prevail in all things, is truly…where the path of peace is.

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