1st Excerpt from Section: “The Heritage Affair”

CHURCH DISAPPOINTMENT? HIS APPOINTMENT!: Why God’s Plan for You…Involved a Painful Church Experience by David Spoon

1st Excerpt from Section: “The Heritage Affair”

We were four Jewish boys, Billy, Bruce, Larry, and myself, all from the same part of Detroit, all saved within the same month, all relocated to the city of Phoenix, and all on the same journey. Where do we fit in the non-Jewish church world?

Our companionship became our church life. We spent all of our time together, hungry for more of Jesus, but with no one to guide us. We were on fire for God, witnessing everywhere and to everyone we came across. Without sounding bitter, I admit it was one of the finest times of my Christianity. We whole-heartedly depended on God for knowledge, wisdom, and guidance. Our youthful convictions were so simple, yet they became the foundation to over thirty-six years of honest, life giving, faith based Christianity.

Marriage Is A Gift From God

Marriage is a gift from God and God’s gift is human love given so that a husband and wife can know each other with mutual care and companionship. God’s gift is also joy, given so you may share your new life together with your family and your friends.

Marriage is a promise of love, and it is a commitment to live to the best that you can find and bring out of each other. It offers opportunity for sharing and growth no other human relationship can equal, a physical and emotional joining that is promised for a lifetime.

Within the circle of its love, marriage encompasses all of life’s most important relationships. A wife and a husband are each other’s best friend, confidant, lover, teacher, listener and critic.

Marriage understands and forgives the mistakes that life is unable to avoid. It encourages and nurtures new life, new experiences, and new ways of expressing love through all the many seasons of life.

When you, pledge to love and care for each other in marriage, you create a spirit unique to yourselves, which binds you closer than any spoken or written words can ever do. Marriage is a promise, made in your two hearts; you who are in love with each other and who willingly will nurture and fulfill that promise for the rest of your lifetime together.

Pressure Can Lead To A Lack Of Peace

One of the greatest challenges that I face personally, on a regular basis, is “letting go” and “letting God”. The reason is simple. As a person who is the continual state of Spiritual Recovery, I find the challenge of not being in control difficult. Ironically, I find that trying to be in control of all my situations is equally difficult. It is important when dealing with spiritual recovery to be as honest and forthright about one’s perceptions and feelings as is possible. There are times when I want to look up to Heaven, smile and just function in the “O.k., You take care of it. It’s your problem now” model. Then, like a snake that enters from the tiniest hole, the thoughts about past discouragements enter the mental fray. And in a twisted fashion, it feels like, from time to time, when I have let go in my past, things quickly fell apart. Even as I write these very words, my spirit and my heart know that these spewed ideologies are false. However, the enemy, the devil, is wise in dealing with humans. After all, he’s been doing it since the beginning of mankind and has had a great deal of practice. While my spirit knows that letting go and trusting in God’s control and sovereignty is not only wise but is the true path to peace, my flesh feels like I need to be in control to protect myself, as much as possible, from being hurt or burned.  I have not, by any means, ever grown one inch, apart from the grace and kindness of God. In my mind, I feel stronger, more astute, and even more aware. But I also feel more of the pressure of life itself. I often tease with my spouse by implying the death blow that everyone would feel if I were to vanish. But as much as it seems to be true to me, it is also false. People, because of God’s grace, have an uncanny knack for survival. And if I were to be called to the Heavenlys, all the current dependers would go right on surviving, without, as is now my guess, missing a beat in life. Therefore, the pressures to prevail and the pressures to perform are based on false assumptions of others being situation ally dependent upon me. The truth is that everyone is continually dependent on God. For, without Him, there would be no survival of anyone, of any kind, anywhere. People don’t need me to survive. They need God. I would do well to humble myself and remember this. So, truthfully, when I let go, I simply enter into the mode or zone of truth that I was designed to function in. It’s hard to stay in because I walk in my flesh a great deal. It’s desirable to walk in because of my born again spirit crying out for rest within God Himself. Letting go and letting God is the way of truth. Because of my frame, it is also a realized pain of failing. Trusting in Him to provide for all things, and to help us to prevail in all things, is truly…where the path of peace is.

The 2 Rules Book

The 2 Rules Book (50 Subjects)


If God broke down our lives with Him and with others in 2 rules, it stands to reason that every other subject for living could and should be able to be summed up in 2 rules.


1) Love God with all you heart, souls, strength, and mind.

2) Love your neighbor as yourself.


1) Communication. Talk, share, listen, ask questions…be a friend. Be a person.

2) Love Making. Fulfill fantasies. Don’t let your spouse’s desires & needs go unfulfilled.


1) Be a friend. It’s foolish that a parent shouldn’t have a friendship with their child. 2) Be a parent. It’s foolish to think that a parent is just a friend.


1) Treat your animals with love, respect, dignity, and appreciation.

2) Remember, that your animal is still an animal and not a person.



1) Support your convictions.

2) Remember, every person is a sinner.


1) Respect your elders.

2) Spend time with your elders because they won’t always be around.


1) Never ignore your children.

2) Never let your children ignore you.


1) Enjoy the various forms of art of your choosing.

2) Don’t make fun of other people’s choices.


1) Have faith.

2) Use faith (Faith is used in the now).



1) Stand up for yourself amongst them.

2) Die to defend them.



1) In order to have a friend: be a friend.

2) Don’t take your friends for granted.



1) When visiting, don’t stay too long.

2) Don’t act like you are visiting.


1) Find a place to call home.

2) Don’t hurt your home in any way.


1) Understand that it is His Word.

2) Believe His Word


1) No prayer is ever ignored.

2) Sometimes, the answer is “NO”.


1) Find a sport and a team to support.

2) Don’t be a fair-weathered fan.


1) Watch less murder shows.

2) Don’t be owned by the television.


1) Listen in order to sing or argue.

2) Don’t believe everything you hear.


1) Explore the vast resources that are available.

2) Be skeptical of every advertisement.


1) Remember that the cover is used to sell you.

2) Try reading more of a variety than you are now.


1) Every story is written with a bias.

2) Buying a newspaper is still a great bargain.




1) Read more of them because they help you think better.

2) Buy your books at bargain centers.


1) Agendas are always in play.

2) Question those who tell you to question.


1) Enjoy it …if you can.

2) Despite the gurus, you still need to have a paycheck and to pay your bills.


1) Don’t be a noisy neighbor.

2) Don’t be a nosy neighbor.


1) If you don’t exercise at all, you will feel the neglect.

2) Physical fitness will not solve life’s problems.


1) Save more than you spend.

2) Credit can be very dangerous.


1) Behold the majesty and vastness of the universe.

2) Go explore it in some fashion.



1) Please leave the room.

2) Just because it’s natural doesn’t mean everyone else wants to share.



1) Never limit anyone’s imagination.

2) Never promote the dark side either.


1) Science should be known as the pursuit of knowledge, not knowledge itself.

2) Science will never answer all the questions


1) Use it as a tool and a help.

2) Never bow down, hoard, or love it.




1) Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

2) Most people’s eyes are tainted.


1) Enjoy!

2) Don’t “Enjoy” too much.


1) No secrets …mean no lying.

2) Everyone has secrets.


1) Is not always hardest on the kids.

2) Should be the absolute very “last” resort.


1) Can be questioned.

2) Should not be questioned with disrespect.


1) Does not kill enthusiasm.

2) Can become legalism.


1) Are most often about money.

2) If it’s not about money, then it’s about sex, power, or fame.


1) Should be celebrated.

2) Birthday people should have one special event or communication in the day.


1) Governments are necessary for society.

2) Governments are mostly run by selfish individuals.


1) Are to be honored and respected.

2) Do not make better politicians.


1) Need to be more appreciated and compensated.

2) Do not need to be union like or political.





1) Need to be safe and reliable.

2) Need to have better operators driving them.



1) Can be the backbone of starting a new life or recovery.

2) Everybody rents. Ask God.


1) Can often have too much pride.

2) Can often have too little pride.


1) Should be responsible and accountable.

2) Need to be given a break.


1) Can be entertaining and helpful.

2) Are often neither.


1) Should be with a good heart.

2) Should never be self-motivated.



1) Should never die.

2) Should be the anchor to our souls.

A Picture, Or A dream, …Is Worth A 1000 Words!

I had a dream when I was a younger Christian. It was the time in my life when my brother Billy and I shared a two bedroom apartment. In fact, it was the first place I moved to, and the first time I was living away from my parents. I remember that it was late at night, close to midnight.

I just finished reading the book of Galatians in the Bible. I had read it several times before and probably had just finished it for the ninth or tenth time. After reading it, I put my Bible away, and I looked up to God. Honest, without any prideful awareness, I mentioned that “I got it”. I didn’t mean it in a way that was degrading to Divinity. I was simply sharing with the Lord that I understood it all and it wasn’t too complex.

A few moments later, I went to bed. As I was sleeping, I had the following dream: I was out on a lake in a small boat.

(Picture something like a small row boat.) And I was fishing. For the record, I never go fishing, so some of these details seem to really stick out to me. I was on a body of water, the size of a small natural lake, with trees and common surroundings at the shore edges. It wasn’t a perfectly shaped lake. It seemed like one of ten thousand small lakes that a person may see. I was in the boat by myself, and it seemed to be early morning, with a touch of fog lifting itself slowly off the water. I was dressed in casual clothes, but no actual fishing gear. I don’t even think I had a hat on. I was holding a regular looking fishing pole (whatever that means) and I had a line that was in the water. It was down about six feet or so.

All of a sudden, I could see myself in the boat from a side point of view. And I was going under the water, looking at myself with the line. Then, in an instant, I was plunged down to around two hundred feet! The Lord spoke to me and said;

“This is where you were at, (referring to my six feet of fishing, )

But this is how deep it can go!! ” Remember, I was dreaming.

But somehow, I was conscience of the fact that God was personally teaching me something. That dream ended and the rest of the night, my mind was moving a thousand miles an hour, with dream after dream and thought after thought. Equations, patterns, plans, concepts… It was like the picture of heavy duty geographical, geometrical, …geo “everything” cal… running in my brain.

For five or six hours, my brain was moving at the most bizarre accelerated speed that you could even imagine. No joke.  I woke up the next morning, and I had the world’s biggest migraine headache… ever. All day long, my head was pounding like it was going to explode. It wasn’t until late the next night that the tension relaxed.

The lesson was fairly obvious, but definitely unforgettable. The Word was plenty deep. And I had barely scratched the surface of the water. And truth be told, the depth of the Word itself exceeds Man’s basic ability of comprehension. It’s understandable, but The Word can go a whole lot deeper than we shallow thinkers think. Actually, the experience gave me a new respect and reverence for God’s Word. It’s not just a bunch of good moral ideas and stories collected together for Human betterment. It’s the Supreme Being’s own writing. The Creator of Wisdom itself and there’s a lot more there than we are usually willing to look at or think about.

How amazing. This book that we call “the Bible” is the simplest, and, the most complex writings ever…all at the same time. Even that concept, in and of itself, is utterly amazing. So, go fishing. But don’t tell God you get it all. If you do, buy some aspirin because have you got a surprise coming your way…and such a headache…..

He Gloves Cuz He Loves

Did you ever feel like the Holy Spirit was convicting you of something that you needed to change in your life? Well, if not, you must have moved on to Heaven because I (and everyone I know) seem to go through this process all the time.

The problem is, of course, on our end of things, not on God’s end. But as often as we sense the conviction or the correction of the Spirit in our lives, one could tend to think that God may be angry with us. But, He’s not.

And how do we know that He’s not? Well, we know for certain because of Romans 5:1, which says “Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.”

We know because His relationship with us is based on the work of Jesus, not on our works. Ephesians 2:8-9 says “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.”

And we know this because of Romans 2:4, which says “Or do you show contempt for the riches of His kindness, tolerance and patience, not realizing that God’s kindness leads you toward repentance?”

The conviction of God comes in our lives, not because He is angry with us. It comes into our lives because of His kindness towards us. He’s only trying to help us, not to hurt us. He doesn’t get brownie points as a parent because He corrects us. He’s trying to help us all “grow up” and walk a life that is honoring to Him and helpful to others. The convictions and corrections of The Holy Spirit in our lives are supposed to be seen as a part of His grace for us. Only a parent who didn’t care about a child…would be silent.

Mercy, Mercy, Mercy…

Lord, have mercy. But first we need to understand what mercy is …and what grace is. And what’s the difference.

Grace is unmerited favor. It’s receiving something that we could never deserve. Like…eternal life.

Mercy is unmerited compassion. It’s not receiving something that we do deserve to receive. Like…judgment.

There was a man of God. He had a dream. The dream was of a giant honey pot being poured out on the masses of people. Some people loved the honey and embraced it. Some people looked at the honey in wonderment, trying to understand it. Other people were trying to push it away themselves, pushing it to the ground. The man said to God “what is this? God replied “It’s my mercy.”

Some people love God’s mercy. Some people wonder about God’s mercy. And some people reject God’s mercy.

But His mercy is available…for all of us.

So, have mercy. Why? Because God has mercy …for us.

Let’s have mercy. On others.

And let’s have mercy. On ourselves. (There’s a thought)

Titus 3:5 says “He saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit.”

O.K. Lord, we will. We will receive, give, and …have mercy!


In the last few weeks, I’ve had the opportunity to talk to different people about the purpose of life. In my devotions today, I came a cross Acts 20:24 which quotes Paul regarding his purpose in life. His purpose in life should be our purpose in life too. He says that his life is worthless if he doesn’t find out what Jesus wants him to do and then does it. I believe that every person is created with a position in God’s plan. Our goal should be to find that position and then fill it. Certainly, that position will be different for each person. And being a part of God’s plan does not require everyone to be in full time ministry. It requires us to fulfill whatever the Lord sets before us. The mystery in life is, of course, finding out what that position really is. If a person doesn’t care about finding God’s plan for their life, they are lost. But for the people that want to know what they are suppose to be doing, there is a mystery attached to the fulfillment of that plan. God rarely tells us, in obvious format, what that plan is. The reason that He doesn’t just shout it out to us is simple. He wants us to pursue Him in relationship in order for us to discover what He wants us to do. We are supposed to find Him in order to discover the purpose of our creation. In finding Him in a close relationship, we discover our true fulfillment. It sounds easy, but in my travels, I have found it to be more difficult than I would prefer. One of the reasons that it is difficult is because my flesh had no desire to pursue or “find” God. Whenever a person is the center of their own universe, it means that God is not the center and therefore not the priority on a day by day basis. In essence, when we are the center of our world, we become our own god. The answer seems simple enough. Make sure that Jesus is the center of our individual universe. Then make sure to continually draw close to Him. Then by drawing close to Him we will discover His plan for our lives. Then with the discovery, we need to fulfill His purpose. Then we will find true happiness, contentment, and fulfillment. Wow!

4th Excerpt from Section: “My Testimony”

CHURCH DISAPPOINTMENT? HIS APPOINTMENT!: Why God’s Plan for You…Involved a Painful Church Experience by David Spoon

4th Excerpt from Section: “My Testimony”

The eldest one, a hippie who was definitely stuck in the sixties, couldn’t help noticing that I had a gun pressed against my head. He politely inquired as to what I was doing and I just as politely told him that Stuart and I had decided that life wasn’t worth living and we were going to blow our brains out. The three janitors took on an unspoken mission, no doubt directed by God (remember, God can, will, and does use whatever is available to accomplish His plans. He used both a virgin (Mary) and a prostitute (Rahab) to bring about the birth of Christ. He even used a jackass to rebuke a prophet when Balaam got a mouthful from his own donkey (Numbers 22:30). And I know that He has used unlikely people and places and situations to work things out in your life too!). Instead of freaking out about what Stuart and I were doing, they asked us if we would give them a few moments of our time before we blew our brains out so that they could show us some cool things about life. If we didn’t agree with them, then we could go back to our task at hand. But what was a few extra moments of time to us if we were going to commit suicide anyway? We agreed. Then they asked me if I would please put the gun down for a little while. No problem. I was actually pretty curious about what they wanted to share.

True Blue, …Not So Hot!


The Blues! If you’re into music, then you know that the Blues represent a style of composition and melody dealing with a form of internal distress. That sounds similar to the way people feel in the world today. Bluesy…

It’s easy, in this world of ours, to look around and feel bluesy or …even depressed (the origin for the word depressed is “To press down”). Life can feel troubling.

There can be trouble in our physical world, trouble in our emotional world, trouble in our mental world, trouble in our relationship world, trouble in our financial world, and so on.

Walking in the mindset of the world will guarantee trouble in our hearts. I promise. And so does God.

But Jesus does not want us to live our life here on Earth in the mindset of the world. Jesus does not want us to live our lives in fear. Jesus does not want our hearts to be troubled.

Jesus wants us to walk in the gift that He left for us in order to help us overcome the Bluesy of life.

Jesus said “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid”.

We need to receive His gift. He gives it to us daily. Freely! It’s ours. He already gave it to us. We just need to …receive it. Peace.